| oh man, in case you guys forgot, this blog is flipping sweet. Anyway, I'm over on Rebent now, so hook it up if you want?
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| hey everybody. Everyone has a few questions. Here are some answers.
Xanga.com asks "Hi forthwith! It's been 184 days since you joined Xanga... won't you support us by going Premium?"
My answer is "no"
Katie asks "why havn't you talked about me on your blog yet"
my answer is "because I've been too busy, but I will now. Katie
is a friend of mine. I had a small crush on her for a
while. I really got to know her. she is amazing, if you ask
me. We need more people like her around."
Now, what I'm not telling you is that the reason I lost my small crush
on her is because I discovered that she is only 16. Also, I think
the way for her to solve most of the hard things in life, by which she
had cause to turn to me for consolance, is by living her life in the
strength of knowing that she can do whatever she wants because if
people reject her, there will always be others there for her (such as
myself, or, more importantly, God). It's important for everyone
to remember that it's better to affirm others than to search for
affirmation from them.
Janine asks "How's it going at honey rock?"
my answer for her is "it's been a long summer. It's been good,
but also extreemly tiring. there's alot of good things that have
happened, but also alot of bad things. Breaking a kids bone was
bad. Helping someone feel good about themselves was good. I
don't feel so good right now, but I think it's mostly in my head.
I just want this summer to be over, and my current class, 'christian
thought', is quite a bit of work. some days I study for nine
hours just to be ready for class the next day. I've started
drinking 4+ cups of coffee a day, so I can stay alert, and I never feel
quite rested enough that I'm still happy by the time I'm done studying
before breakfast. Also, I ran out of Zoloft and am too busy to do
anything about it. it's only a week and a half left, tho, so I'm
not really woried."
Ali asks "why havn't you talked to me? Did you get my letter? Do you still love me?"
my answer is "don't even think about it. You said yourself that
there was no going back. It's over now. Clean break.
That's what I always advise to everyone who has to leave someone that
they don't want to stop thinking about. I'm glad you're not
upset, and that you're managing, but it's over and that's it. Sorry,
but saying anything else would not be good for you to hear. Yes, the
truth hurts, but that's what is best."
I often ask myself "why the heck do I not do what I should do?
What should I actually do? Why can't angel, who seems to have
most the answers right, just come run my life for me? That'd be a
nice relief."
My answer to this is "get a life! Living life is more important
than knowing how to live life. Isn't that what you always tell
everyone else? Well, it's true"
With that, I'm out. I love you all. I have so much love for
all of you that you don't even realize, and yet, given the chance, I
will do my best to be a complete jackass reguardless of who you
are.
<3 Sam
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| I cry out for your hand of mercy to heal me. I am week and I need
your power to save me. Oh Lord, my rock, my strength in weekness,
come rescue me, oh Lord. You are my hope; your promise never
fails me; and my desire is to follow you forever: For you are good, for
you are good, for you are good to me.
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